Dzy’s Blog

Much slept on. . .

God that title sounds so academic!!!  But, I guess there's nothing wrong with that.  Anyway.  . .

1.  Id changed with location
2.  id changed over time
3. always around black/latino so race didn't matter. could just be me.  more related to interests/lifestyle.
why harder to maintain.
4. hating europe face.  wanting to appreciate global culture b/c my own culture was represented.  nomad cafe-music not reflecting culture intrests.  cafe in harlem yes.  rock-pink okay in nyc.  not okay in bay?  capoeira and hair questions. 

 I've realized that in many ways--teaching and capoeira are very much alike.  Here's a list of similarities:

1. Be three steps ahead of the game
    In capoeira, you need to constantly think about what's coming next.  If the rasteria doesn't work what will you do?   How do you counter the meia lua?  You need to have a goal in mind.  You need to be thinking ahead of where you are.  Same with teaching.  You have to be three steps ahead of your students.  One of your behavior problems is here today. Okay, greet him at the door and try to get him on the right track.  Students give lots of excuses about homeowrk? Knock their excuses down before they even make them. 
2.  Roll with the punches
    In other words, be flexible.  Maybe the copier is down so students will have to copy off of the board.  If you get a take down in a capoeira game come back with a martelo. 
3.  You never really know how you are doing
    In capoeira it's hard to get accurate feedback because you can't see yourself play.  Same with teaching.  Things seem like they are working, you think you are doing a good job but you don't always know. 
4.  Have your own style
    You have to be sincere when teaching.  You can't be the next Edward James Olmos.  You have to be you.  Otherwise it's just acting and you'll be exhausted. In capoeira, you have to develop your own style and have your own game. Use the way your body works to your advantage. 
5.  Work your ass off
    I have yet to meet a good teacher who didn't work their ass off.  In fact, I always said 'the greatest enemy of teaching is time'.  You know what you have to do for your students but you don't have the time or the energy to do it.  Same with capoeira.  You can always practice you kicks more or work on a new florieio or learn a new song.  
6.  Don't be afraid to try new stuff
    You gotta spice things up as a teacher or it gets really boring for you and your students.  Same in capoeira. If you do the same moves each time your opponent will be able to read you and you will get 'checked' or 'locked out'. 
7. Question Answer
    In teaching you ask questions and the students answer.  Or, students ask questions and the teacher answers.  The same with capoeira.  You do a move and your opponent 'answers'.  Or vice versa. 
8.  There's always some bullshit
    Paperwork.  Nasty teachers or nasty students.  In every capoeira group there's always someone how plays in a way you don't like.  There's always a favorite.  There's always someone who doesn't like you. 
9. Never let yourself be vulnerable
    Some may disagree with me here but I don't think it's a good idea to cry in front of your students.  Many students are taught that crying=fear and that fear should never be expressed.  It can also appear unprofessional to your collegues and supervisors.  Crying or vulnerablity is never good in capoeira.  I can't tell you how many times I went HOME and cried after class because of one frustration or another but I do my best to avoid doing this in class.  Also, don't be vulnerable in the game.  Don't do a queda de rins at the foot of a person who is standing opposite you.  Try never to turn your back.  Don't get stuck queda de quatro. 
10.  Have fun
    As a teacher you gotta be silly sometimes.  Take the pressure off.  One day, I spoke to 602 (which was my worst class ever in the history of teaching : ) in a robot voice for the whole period.  They loved it!   In capoeira, don't be afraid to make fun of yourself.   One time I slipped and fell and rolled on the floor for a bit.  I decided to keep rolling just to give myself a good laugh.
11.  The joys of success are immeasurable. 
    The days that I have a good game are pure joy. When students master a concept or are excited about a subject you are in heaven.  You work, you work, you work and then finally it pays off.   That is satisfaction. 

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Just kidding. . .Actually the Bay is a great place.  It's the people that I have a problem with.  And I don't have anyone to talk to about these things because naturally the folks from here are defensive.  So, I'm just gonna rant!

1.  The people are polite but not friendly.  Californians freak out if you talk to them and they don't know you.  This makes it really hard to meet people.  In fact, I might not even be writing this blog if I could actually meet some fun loving people. 

2.  Too much fruitiness.  Fruity capoeira, fruity yoga, fruity meditation retreats.  Fruity educators for social justice workshops.  Fruity empowering women of color conferences.  Why can't we do stuff without the fruitiness?  We don't need to love each other and hold hands and look into each others' eyes and make collages and draw pictures all the time.  No more feathers!  No more pillows!  Fuck the Fruitiness! 

3.  Too much whining and complaining. 'It's foggy!', 'It's raining'.  'It was SO hot'.  Fog never killed anyone.  Neither did rain.  And the 'SO hot' day was at most 80 degrees of dry heat.  Nut up people!  That brings me to my next complaint.

4. Too much softness.  Again--Nut up people!  You won't die if you have to walk two blocks to the store. 

5.  Too many people who think they are down but they are really not.  Too many white people who think they aren't racist but they are.  Big newsflash people--everyone is racist!  This is the United States of America.

6.  Not enough sabor.  Where is the flavah!?  Show off a bit.  Don't be so mellow.  Be loud. Be vivacious.  Let the world know who you are. 

7.  The Bay is supposed to be open-minded but it's only open-minded if you agree with the predominant thought of the left.  Things are so PC out here.  An extreme example, you can't say 'go straight' for fear of offending gay people.  I felt a lot more free to say what I thought in NYC where anyone can say anything no matter how offensive it is.  

8.  Too much 'niceness'.  People feel the need to be 'nice' or 'polite' all the time.  This is actually very hard to do so then the 'niceness' leads to passive-aggresivity and flakiness.   Just be real.  Be direct.  It saves time.  This brings me to my next point. 

9.  Too much time spent talking really slowly.  Why does it take people a whole paragraph to say something a New Yorker would've said in one sentence?  My patience is wearing really thin.

10.  Too 'Green'.  I want to save the planet as much as anyone.  I recycle.  I reuse items when I can.  I try to limit the number of bags I use when I buy items at a store.  But people in the Bay take being 'Green' to extremes.   No, I'm not going  to ride my bicycle from North Oakland to Fruitvale  to get to work everyday.   And I'm not  going to become  a vegetarian.  Eating meat is a privilege that I enjoy.  In fact a lot of the  stuff  that I'm complaining about is built on privilege that goes totally unacknowledged.  I think this is why it bothers me so much.   

P.S.  One of the guys from the team from France was wearing an Abada Capoeira t-shirt. 

Okay, here's a link to an article about b-boying and capoeira.  Again, the assertion that capoeira did not influence b-boying.  http://www.bboy.org/forums/interviews-articles/51945-history-breakdancing.html So why the similarities?  Are they coincidental and spontaneous? 

1.  I needed a break from NYC
2.  I don't need a lot of stuff.  Decent clothes, a computer with internet, Netflix, a comfortable, safe, quiet, place and I'm good.  Cable if I'm being extra extravagant : )
3.  Same shit different place.  I used to have days in nyc where I was like 'is everyone crazy or is it just me?'.  Well, that happens everywhere.  I had one of those days yesterday.
4.  Everything is easier in Cali. 
5.  Many people in Cali are polite but not friendly.
6.  If you can appreciate what you have you will be much happier. 
7.  I love teaching adults.  More teaching less bullshit.
8.  I miss the energy, warmth and sense of community in NYC.
9.  I like the NYC me better.  I was more vivacious, louder, bolder.  I've had to tone it down here because that stuff doesn't always go over well. 
10.  There are more rules in NYC.  
11. When you move you think you know what it's like, you can plan, but you never know 'til you get there. 
12.  Loneliness is a part of life. 
13.  I love cafes. The Bay Area has a lot of good ones. 
14.  The Bay Area is exceptionally beautiful.

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Okay. . .after some more time in my capoeira group, I have to say that I don't think the issues with the differences in capoeira have to do with culture-vultures.  It's an art thing not a race thing.  Some people just prefer the more artistic side of capoeira.  I don't know if that's the teacher's emphasis but it seems like most people simply prefer to play what I would call a performance game.  Which is fine.  The problem is that I prefer to play more of an ass-kicking game.  So only time will tell how I'm going to fit into this situation.  This doesn't mean that I don't believe in culture-vultures.  Or even that there aren't culture vultures in the class.  I'm sure race and class do come into play for all of us.  But I do feel that people are more motivated by their artistic notions more than anything else.

I feel like for the last 3 months, I've been traveling in a strange but familiar land, living in a really bad hotel, with a crazy lady.  

I'm not sure if this is like  that what you learned in kindergarten book where the life lessons in your first year of school are great and should be applied to the rest of your life.  But this is what I learned in public school and maybe some of it is useful and some of it is not. 

1.  Don't stand out too much.  Don't raise your hand all the time or the other students will think you are a teachers pet.  Play down your intelligence so that it doesn't threaten people.  Don't kiss ass.  Other people will hate it. 
2.  Stand up for yourself.  Let folks know that you aren't going to put up with any nonsense.  Stand up for yourself even if you are outmatched.  Maybe someone else will step in and stand up for you if you can't do it alone. 
3.  Stick up for other people.  This is a good way to build allies. 
4.  Be yourself.  Don't worry about being popular.  People will come to you. 
5.   Be known for something.  Better to be known for something than to be ignored. 
6.   Respect people who respect you.

There's probably more here.  Those of you who went to public school in an urban area can add to this.